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1. Financial aid( almost done)
2. Pick up Income Tax(done)
3. Finish Application(almost done)
4. Possibly go to doctors
5. Therapy( EVERYDAY ALL WEEK)(good job!)
6. Call to check your schedule(done)
7. Pay phone, gym, and anything else needed.(next week)
8. Ignore EVERYONE... or talk to an old friend or make a new friend(nah)
9. Finish everything for school
10. Try to work out(next week)
11. Learn a new word
12. Do hair(today)
13. Buy Nyquill PM
14. clean room
15. be happy
16. learn to love yourself
17. be more confident
18. HAVE FUN



I don't know why but last night i thought about David.. this guy i use to know a year ago and we stopped becoming friends because of course ME. Maybe I should try to find him on some sort of site.. or would that be too stalker-ish? ah, who cares. Hopefully I find him, i need to apologize to him and stuff. He was really funny. YO DAVID WHERE THE FUCK IS YOU AT! DAVIDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, time to pick up the cousin. Check ya laters live journal.

Life, I found out is really short. I didn't think I'd experience that feeling so early in my life. I never really even thought about it. I need to live my life, make an effort in everything I do and just be happy overall for everything and anything. We are here because God gave us that opportunity and I need to be grateful and blessed that I'm allowed here another MINUTE, not just a day but seconds on this earth.

I want to become closer with myself, meaning spiritually, sexually and anything else. I want to become closer to something. What are you talking about Penelope? Anyways.

Another note....

If you like me, why don't you tell me? I may feel the same.

My eyes are starting to have a bit of "puff" to them, I guess this means time for anti-wrinkle and dark circles creams.
I WILL POST A PICTURE OF THIS MADNESS!!

Anyways,

The employer "Dan" from California calls me to get update about my therapy and any change in my resume. Honestly if I find a place to live here and a decent job, I aint going no where. I'd be nice to take that step and try it out though and visit yet another state. I have to really think, time is running up.

so, these pants I bought a month or so ago don't fit me anymore. I guess I lost some weight? I don't know. But if this is going to continue maybe I should give up on shopping for now. =(

I need to work out more. I'm starting to slack off again. I may just buy this treadmill from this guy in Aventura tomorrow.. If I do, I know I'll probably work out everyday or at least after dinner. so why not invest in this treadmill......................ITS ONLY 300 dollars!

I'm desperate to be at the size I want to be, but I love sweets too much! what's to do? I NEED HELP!

She stands out in a packed room, her face is the most beautiful face you've ever seen . Her smile does not compete with any other smile. Men can't take their eyes off her. Impressed by how she's dressed, how she stands and her calm-collected attitude.
Men approach her, compliment her, tell her how they couldn't help but notice her. She rejects them all,though.

The most beautiful girl has the worst self esteem.

her thoughts are " Ugh, why did I come here. Everyone is staring at me... What in heavens name are they looking at. Can they see all my flaws? WHAT ARE THEY STARING AT! I HOPE THEY STOP!"

with her thoughts, would she be alone forever? Can she truly love and let someone love her?
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MRI tomorrow. Hopefully nothing serious.
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I want a GREAT boyfriend? I think..